I will Tony Chapter 2: Merlin's decision
There sits Merlin than with the death body of is best friends in his arms, tears rolling over his cheeks. He could not believe that he failed after he lost, after so much he did to protect him, he stilled failed. How did it came so far that his best friend lays dead in his arms. He should killed Mordred first. He should killed him years ago. He made the wrong decisions a long time ago, he will never forgive himself that it’s his fault, by his wrong decisions his best friend is been killed. He is so angry on the world, on himself. The anger fills his whole body, he hates himself for what happened. He screams Arthur’s name out, it was a harrowing scream. And then he looks to his best friend dead body in his arms, cries louder and even have to gasping for breath.
His best friend, his soulmate was gone forever, it’s something that he could not bear, could not live with it. NO!! This could not be the end, it will not end here! Suddenly Merlin remembers a spell he saw once to bring someone back from death, it was a very powerful spell, only a person with great powers could use it and if you weren’t strong enough, it would kill but Merlin didn’t care about that. If he wasn’t strong enough to bring his friend back than he don’t want to live anymore, so how this was something he could not live with it. He close his eyes, lays his right hand on Arthur’s forehead and the left one on Arthur’s heart. Than he says the spell: “becuman eft æt cwealm” Merlin feel how much the spell take from him, he feels how the power flew out his body. A fell bright light shines suddenly over the whole body of Arthur. The spell is so powerful that Merlin fear for a moment that he will not survive this but then suddenly he hears his name. He opens his eyes and sees that Arthur is moving.
“Arthur, oh Arthur your back!” Tears rolling over his cheek again.
“How can that? I was death. What did you too Merlin? Did you ask a sorcerer to bring me back?” Merlin looks confused to Arthur, he did knew he had magic right or did the spell took that memory of him, was this his punishment for messing up with the death?
“Yes, I just…I could….could not bear your lost” for Arthur really knowing what happened was Merlin crying, it broke his heart. He sits right up and takes Merlin in his arms, Merlin lay his head on his chest and Arthur strokes through his hair.
“sssstttt it’s okay Merlin, it’s okay, I’m back and will never leave you again.” It calms Merlin down.
They sit like that for a while, after that Merlin was completely calm down, Arthur let him go and stands up.
“Time to go back to Camelot.”
Merlin smiles, he stands up but then he felt up the ground again, the spell had weakened him. Arthur runs direct to Merlin.
“Are you okay? What is wrong with you?”
Merlin wanted to say that it was from the spell he used but he could not do that, not now so he decided to say:
“Caring you around for two days, just exhausted me a lot. That’s all.”
“Ow yeah, totally forgot that, thnx btw to do that. Euhm… I appreciate that.”
“What do you remember from the moments before your……..” Merlin had a lump in his throat by saying the next word.
“I remember you and Gaius take care of my wound. We had good talks like you were proud to be my servant, and that you killed Morgana.”
Suddenly Merlin feels the ground disappears under him and for he realize it, he lays in Arthur’s arms, lays his head on his shoulder and felt in sleep. When he wake up he was in Camelot, lays not in his own bed and then he saw Arthur sitting next to me and Gaius but his eyes felt still heavy and he close his eyes but he hear them speaking, Arthur was worried that he could hear in his voice.
“Gaius this is not normal, he is sleeping all more than a week. What is wrong with him. There is more than just that he is exhausting.”
Gaius lays an arm on Arthur’s shoulder.
“I know but Merlin is strong. There happened a lot Arthur. You died in his arms, that is a lot to take for him. Take some sleep Arthur.”
“No I want to be there when he wakes up. He stayed at my side too the whole time, not leaving him alone now.”
“I will stay and when he wakes up I will directly let you called. When you are exhausting when he is waking up will not Merlin feel better and will not help either.”
Arthur looks to Gaius with tears in his eyes.
“Will he become better? Will he ever wake up?” A tears rolls from his cheek.
“He will Arthur. Merlin is a very strong man, he will survive this.”
Arthur gives a weak smile and then decide to go to his room to sleep a little bit. Gaius strokes through Merlin’s hair.
“My boy what did you do? What happened?”
Merlin opens slowly his eyes, still sounding weak.
“I brought him back Gaius but the spell took a lot of me. I feel me so weak.”
“I know my boy, I know but I have to know which spell you used so I can make a remedy that gives you step by step back your strengths.”
“I used the coming back from death spell.”
Gaius looks shocked and angry.
“It could kill you!!”
Merlin have tears in his eyes.
“I know but I didn’t care, I just wanted to have my friend back.”
Gaius regretted immediately that he yelled to him.
“I’m sorry Merlin I know how much Arthur means to you. I will make the remedy but you will be still out for at least a week. Try to sleep again and come back to your strengths.”
Gaius walk away when he hears Merlin saying.
“He doesn’t remember that I have magic anymore.”
Gaius turns him back to Merlin but then see he felt in sleep again, he just seeing a tear escaping from his eyes. It made him sad to see his boy so broken. He goes away and make the remedy, after an half hour it’s ready and gives it to Merlin. He feels that a little bit of his strengths is coming back but he is not there yet. The next day, he feels that someone is holding his hand, he slowly opened his eyes again and sees it’s Arthur that holding his hand.
“Hey Merlin, your finally awake.” The tears stands in his eyes.
“I’m fine Arthur, I will be recovery fully. Don’t worry about me.”
“I will always be worried about you Merlin. Your my best friend, I cannot lose you.”
“You will never do, I swear.”
Arthur smiles and then Merlin closes his eyes again, Arthur keep holding his hand.